May Its Spirit Fly
A baby bird passed away today. Merry was trying to nurse it to health, feeding it baby food with a syringe. It didn't seem to have its eyes opened, and never unfurled its wings. We buried it respectfully in the landscaping of the pond I was working on. I will always remember its body is there, but will always picture it free from the constraints of the physical world, finally in flight, weightless, among the astral...
Yes, I’m Adjusting and I’m Trainable
I wrote about my one last visit to Christina at college a Saturday in April, but didn't mention I especially liked picking up one of harmonicas lying around to collaborate in a random jam session with Christina and a friend. If I ever learn violin, Merry will demand a banjo and we'll have plenty of self-entertaining going on. Anyway, I hoped to visit more but health issues of my own then Merry took precedence. As I...
Maybe I’ll Just Fiddle with It.
I felt a growing anticipation as I neared the mall. A brother arranged it because I didn't have the money at the time a few weeks earlier -- it was a salew of the day. When I got there I had to unzip her -- if it was a her -- like a new mother checks for all their child's fingers and toes. I didn't really have any conscious expectation but was surprised how shiny and small she was. I don't think I ever even held a...
Graduation Day
Christina graduates today, receiving a degree in English from SUNY Fredonia. Not in a "couldn't think of a major" sort of English, but "I'm going to copy edit the h3ll out of the universe and no one will stop me" kinda way. Oddly, it doesn't feel like forever ago or yesterday that she came into my life. These days, it just seems like a timeless blessing to have her here as who she is at this moment. Sure, the...
A Spiritual Spring
During a fit of meditation, I reached out psychically to a friend I haven't spoken to in a while, but felt recoiled, rejected, until a warm feeling a few days later, as if to apologize. I miss them and sometimes have a strong empathic connection, but in some ways am more comfortable at a distance. In another instance, while at the Lodge of Research, I entered a state of prolonged, sharper awake-ness. Words do not...
(Not) The Last Year
The Mayans didn't see it coming, and neither did I. I had a mid-life crisis (sort of, I think), and a record year in Kentropolis. I have a phone that is practically a tri-corder, a new kitten (very possibly the cutest in the world, and the reincarnation of LadyBug), and wearing a tuxedo on a regular basis. Connecting spiritually with a friend back in April awoke all sorts of energies, dreamings, and the generic...
I Want My Childhood
I Want My Childhood I didn't know the stillness of falling snow, swift silence I didn't bother to listen until I grew out of my skin and finally slowed down There it is beauty still There was no one to share it with me in a tobaggan with no hill sent out dressed warm I return inside purpose unsure I had it for a few short years second-hand never denying a child's snow angel Yes, you will be my alibi to make one...
I said it would change my life.
What I did cannot be accurately described as "buying a phone". In fact, I played with my Samsung Galaxy Skyrocket (S2) for several hours before thinking maybe I should use my "device" for calling someone. In one fell swoop, I Freecycled my old phone, returned Bob's camera on loan to me since who-knows-when, and retired my voice recorder. I now do much of my personal surfing either in bed waking up (especially...
Productive!
The last couple weeks I've gotten a lot of stuff done -- doing projects one after another, checking off house chore lists, and tonight I reached the rare goal of an empty Outlook inbox. However, I had to cancel a service day for Earth 2 Mouth because I didn't get around to coordinating it early enough. I can only do 100 things, and that turned out to be 101. I'm trying to cut out obligations and projects so I...